Me and Boogie slept together last night. No sex, just sleeping. I woke up and left her camp and went to go make some money. She never called or texted as usual, so that first made me suspicious. So I went to her camp and she was hanging out with 2 dudes smoking Molly. She asked me to go get her something to eat, so I went to the store to get her some food and when I got back, she told me she's about to leave to go take a shower. I asked her who with and she said Matt. Somebody she previously told me she tried to fuck, but didn't - but still, she tried. And now she's leaving with him to go take a shower, with him just taking her there, and who knows what else. I told her that I might go, and she said she can't take anyone. I told her I would find my own ride, and she said that if I show up there she's going to be pissed - I asked her why does it matter - she said because I would be stalking her. That is the dumbest answer I've ever heard. Then she told me she needs me to stay at her camp to watch her stuff. She must have me fucked up.
I'm sitting here waiting for her to leave so I can leave - but I'm thinking of just leaving right now. I really don't care anymore. The more and more I think about it, she really doesn't care about me, even though she says she does. She treats me like shit half the time and I catch her in lies alot. I don't deserve this. I do love her, and that's the only reason I've been sticking around.
And now she's about to do a huge shot of shards. Guess what she likes to do after doing a big shot? She likes to fuck. I'm done.